Gabriel

You held my heart in your hands
As soon as you realized it 
You did what you do best
You left
I remember the heartache I felt
The first time I ever felt my heart beat out of my chest
The pain in my throat
The sinking feeling I felt in the pit of my stomach
My first love and my first heartbreak
How can I still love you after all this time
Do I love you?
Am I still in love with you?
I have grown enough as a woman
To realize
You were too much of a coward to speak the truth Were we too young?
How can I look you in the eyes to this day and somehow feel your pull to me

our hearts beating as one as if time has not passed us by 

Are we soulmates not meant to be together? 

Was I to much for you?

Did you not know how to love me the way I deserved?
I see you now and the path you have chosen and I weep for you

how can someone I once loved be so lost