im sorry

I just had that smile

the one that rot

I had that laughed

I fooled a lot

I said hi every morning.

Even though i meant 

goodbye

I never told you what will

happen to me.

You cried and everyone 

thought i had hurt you

But instead you cried

Because you couldn't

Understand me

I gave you a book

On all about me

You looked at it confused

Because to you it was

Written in a secret language

I have nobody i am close to 

and im sorry to say

No one every was with me

in the darkest days.

Im sorry that im the

daughter you never wanted

You might have wanted it better

but you never got it.

Im sorry im a terrible sister

Im crying cause i know

I hurt more than you hurt me

and im sorry

Im sorry im a shitty friend

Or just the girl next door

Who snapped you an attitude

Anytime you came.

Im sorry my grades ain't well

Or that i have this ugly

Personality.

I sing and cry myself to

sleep every night.

God i wish you knew

that im hurting too.