I'm not your source for entertainment.
I'm not your doll to dress and do as you please.
I'm not your fictional character, twisting in impossible shapes for your amusement.
I'm not your toy to break and leave behind.
I am not an antique for your memorabilia.
I was the one that pushed you to become better.
I was the one that stayed to comfort you while others turned away.
I cared for you when you were poor in health.
I didn't run for miles, I ran yards for you.
And if I was as naive as I was back then to now, I'd do it all again at your call.
I can't. I won't . I refuse to be the cave you sleep in for cover from the rain.
If I'm cold, it's only for you.
I want you to always remember how I flourished the moment I freed myself from you.
I've given you every piece of me and now I'm taking it all back.
Had I known what I truly meant to you from the beginning, I never would have built such a world between us.
While I crafted something wonderful, you stayed under the shade.
When I called for help, you barely did much then.
Now that I know what I know now, I don't need you like I first believed.
I was so scared to walk on my own that I came dependent on you and the second I did, it marked the very moment I was no longer my own person.
I designed my own destruction but beneath this rubble is something worth more than you could ever understand.
So thank you for making me "so cold".
I've got plenty warmth to give and you will freeze from your own hands.
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Author:
Persephone (Pseudonym) (
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- Comment from author about the poem: Toxic people are never worth the care you put into them. I wrote this for a lot of reasons but the main reason was for it to be used as a mantra. So many people feel guilty for shedding deadweight that they often go back to that miserable state. I wrote this for those that need to understand that no matter what you go through, your value only increases but you have to recognize that some people are not ideal for the kind of life you deserve to live/be surrounded by.
- Category: Reflection
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Very inspirational!
I’ve been in a bad marriage for 13 years now.
I left, but eventually we ended up back together.
We have a seven year old son and the battle for custody was horrible!
He had an attorney, that his dad paid for.
I had no attorney.
This guy was coming up stories so convincing, a almost lost my son.
Anything, I’m rambling.
Nice write:)
Goodness Resa - how do you hold it together.... what a horrible situation....... Be well........
Thank you Lorna.
If you knew the whole story, it would blow you away!
LOL
Your poem has a lot of truth in it...... I once got some advice "you're not a performing seal"............ because of trying to turn myself into a pretzel for someone and wondering why I felt so bad...... took a while but that was a great piece of advice.....
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