HURRICANE UTAH☠️🦇

I Wont Break This Mirror..

Disrespecting My Grandma's House I Would Never,

Why Am I Looking At A 28 Year Old Woman Without Her Shit Together?

Where The Fuck Did Everything Go Wrong?

I Don't Know How Much Longer I Can Be Strong,

Im Starting To Think At Home With The Devil Is Where I Truly Belong.

Im Looking Again,

This Time There's Something Else That I See,

A Little Girl In A Red Dress, Wait A Minute.. That Little Girl Is Me.

My Mama Was Only 16 And My....Was 21,

Trying To Be Daddy's Little Girl While He Was Wishing He Had A Son.

Mama Always Promised To Love And Watch Over Me,

I Know She Tried Her Best But Growing Up At Home Was My Enemy.

Those Late Night Tears That My Parents Chose To Ignore,

Led Me To Fuck My Life Up, Wasting It Away... Like What The Fuck Do I Want It For?

In School I Was Never The Smartest,

Trying To Concentrate Was The Hardest,

Tried To Make My Dad Proud Cause Graduating High school Is What I Promised.

I Had No Choice But To Promise Because All My Dad Did Was Yell,

Constantly Telling Me Im Worthless, All I Do Is Fuck Up And Fail.

My School Work Never Got Completed,

Something Was Wrong I Should've Been Treated..

I Needed Their Love, I Needed Real Help

But They Thought Sending Me Away Is What THEY Needed.

Was It Because I Said I Was Gay?

You Had To Send Me Miles Away?

A Secretly Abusive Treatment Center That They Call D.R.A?

How The Fuck Was Home Without Me?

How Did The Cancun Trip Go Without Me?

You Wouldn't Even Let Me Call My Friends Or Let Them Check Up On Me.

Was I Really That Bad Of A Kid?

I Know I’ve Done Some Fucked Up Shit,

How Can You Send Me Somewhere You Never Heard Of? You Dont Realize What You Did! 

I Understood Your Intentions, Just Wish You Understood This For Once, 

How Can A Parent Just Get Rid Of Their Kid? Even Pay $5 Thousand A Month? 

While You Were Enjoying Dinner.. Those Burgers, That Pasta And Chicken, 

I Was Eating Shit Outside On the Ground Being Talked To Like I Was In Prison!

A Life Without Me Was A Life You Were Enjoying,

No Longer Had To Hear My "Problems" That You Thought Were Annoying,

Your Daughter Cried For Help And That's What You Were Avoiding,

Thinking This Was You "Helping" Me But My Heart Is What You Were Destroying. 

The Only Thing I Ever Wanted Was The Love You Couldn’t Provide,

How Was It Getting That Call And Hearing “Your Daughter Tried Committing Suicide”.

You All Thought I Was Dramatic And Hurricane Utah Is Where I Needed To Be,

You Could've Just Helped Me Once, And Found Out I Just Had A.D.H.D

I Just Wanna Know,

How Would You Feel Being Taken Away From Your Family?

Now How Do You Feel Knowing YOU Were The Family That Abandoned Me?

12 Years Later, Still Saying There Was No Wrong In What They Did.

They Will Never Fucking Get It, This Place Really Fucked Up Their Kid!