I walk now

So now I walk...

I walk because you can't cry when you're trying to breath

I walk because I am afraid that if I stop my heart will freeze

I wear the miles into my soul,

I walk until I somehow feel whole.

A numbness washes over my bones,

And the ringing fades to simple death tones.

All the feeling and thoughts push me to fall,

So I walk until I feel nothing at all.

Then I tear at my skin with relentless desire,

A dangerous pursuit to set my flesh on fire.

If only it were that simple and sure,

That I could tear this out and finally be pure.

I'd lay it in your hands as I kissed your face,

But instead I walk at this soulless pace.

My thoughts are too loud

My demons too proud

Anxiety is violent

But pain is silent