2AM

Trapped in a loop, life flashed before my eyes in one felt swoop.

I'm dangerous to myself, can't understand why im dropping health. Maybe im dying, on the inside im trying but who else can see?

Spitting image of a golden boy who there used to be. I'm not him.

I never was. Failed exams long days it's agonising. The pain I'm in is undying. I keep my mouth closed and my mind clogged. I use drugs as an excuse as to why I have flaws. Popping pills like no tomorrow, because if I pop just enough I can be free.

But then I leave the world in a shittier condition than it was when they praised me. My mother didn't raise me, didn't kbow how. 

She can't even decide on who's my stepfather. I've lost track, and now in thia moment I'm the only one holding me back. I could destroy every friendship I had with very few words. 

Appreciation for what you do not have is absurd. Lack patience, maybe one day ill be famous, only time will tell.

Maybe in the future I could rhyme just as well. I really hope, that if you were listening to your inner voice while reading, you can see what I'm seeing.

Life's a car accident in motion, two people collide and it's either all over or just a new beginning, and I'm starting to feel like there is no losing or winning. I'm still trapped. Cage of emotions, depression ensues. Only thing I wouldn't rather be in this world is you.