Feelings

How do you wrap your mind around this. Like who knew it would be like this. One minute I’m perfect, amazing, and something special. Now it’s like you hate me and you feel you can do better. Maybe you can but you could never replace me. Let’s be honest I was the tree, branches, and the roots. I cared about your mind, spirit, heart , and feelings. I took you and molded you and when you was worried I held you. Now how can you replace that? I never folded in not one situation. I stayed solid and was the front and the back. Never judged hell had no reason to cause even though you was messed up; I was messed up too. Now you act like I didn’t mean nothing. you think you can erase me that easily .. you got all these ppl in your life but where was they when you felt like you wasn’t worth having a life. I built you up just so you can break me down. I lost my self in you and now I’m looking like a clown. I cared for you more than myself. I worried about you cause if not me who else.. now let me go ahead and say I wasn’t perfect no not at all.. I would hurt you with my words and acted as if you would never kick me to the curb. I would lash out and many times I didn’t let you in. But that didn’t mean stop knocking I just needed you more as a friend. I knew what you had been through and still didn’t see that you put all your hopes in me and that’s some big shoes to fill I mean just look at it through me. I had to heal your mind, heart , and spirit and still keep pulling myself. I did the best that I could but dealing with you wasn’t easy you see. I fought with you from the very beginning. Remember when you used to lash out at me. Pushed me away but didn’t see how I pulled you back to me. I knew I had to fix you if it was the last thing I do. I knew I had to keep you cause I seen me through you. But now it’s gone and all I can do is think of all the good we been through and wonder how it would’ve been if I was more like you..