Drowning

Sometimes it is easier to let go,

Sometimes it's easier to say it's over.

Sometimes the one who was supposed to pull us up, isn't strong enough to do it so they let go..

Because it's easier to let go then to fight.

Sometimes you can be walking on the edge, and the one who was supposed to pull you back and save you doesn't like being the hero...so they watch you trip.

They watch you trip, and they watch you fall.

 

Fall…

You're falling, you slipped from the ship's edge and no one can save you. You've fallen, you're falling, and instead of looking for salvation, you look at the stars above you. They're so peaceful, and even though you are moving farther and farther away from them, they stay in that one spot watching. Watching you, watching you as you fall, fall and fall and fall to your fatal death. You hit the ocean’s surface and everything is black…

You're eyes adjust but your body isn't.

Your legs are freezing up so are your arms… you can't move.

Drowning….

You're drowning and you're still falling deeper and deeper into your own abyss.

Your heart skips a beat.

Your lungs slowly run out of air

Air that escapes from your mouth as bubbles.

Bubbles rising up to the surface while you're still falling, while you're still drowning.

As air leaves and water invades, your eyelids get heavier each second.

Whispers….

You hear someone whispering your name,

Millions of whispers repeating over and over again.

You fall deeper and they fade away..Slowly fading.. slowly vanishing from you, slowly slipping away from you. Slowly, slowly

The sunlight becoming dimmer, and the darkness consuming you, consuming your surroundings.

Swallowing them up, and swallowing you up whole.

Darkness,

Pure darkness.

An abyss that wherever you look, it's all pure nothingness. Nothing but darkness. Nothing but lost hope. Nothing but you. You close your eyes, and you hear your name. Distant. Getting louder and clearer.

You stop.

You come to a halt.

Then you start to go up.

You go up and up and up, light slowly coming back, your lungs getting lighter.

Light….

The ocean isn’t that scary anymore.

There’s light, so much light now the feeling of being empty is gone.

You’re almost to the top and you see something.. someone coming down, towards you.

Is it? It is.

It’s the person that made your heart beat faster every time you saw them.

It’s the person that held you when you were crying, it’s the person that kissed you when you you were angry. It’s that one person that was always there for you whenever you needed someone the most….and here they are again.

They reach their hands out towards you, and you reach for it.

Your hands lock with each they and they pull you up.

Cracking the surface you take in a deep breath of air filling your lungs with air instead of water.

Eyes slowly opening and looking around.

There’s so much light it takes you eyes a minute to adjust.

Slowly a figure appears in front of you, it’s them, the one that pulled you up, saved you from drowning.

They look at you, your eyes meeting.

Their eyes begin to water and they pull you in towards them, all of this you take in, and your eyes become an uncontrolled hurricane.

This goes on for a while, but it feels good, it feels safe and you don’t feel like you’re drowning anymore.

Down. Down. Down

Up. Up. Up

No more drowning, for now.