Addiction *take three*

Overcoming the pain of masking really can drain your soul but becoming sober is good as you have gained control. You realize a lot more than you know when you are sober. Taking pills an smoking dope, your tolerance gets higher and you reach for a rope that you use as a tourniquet for your soul to be sucked in an out. Your body is weak and you can barely speak as you try to walk around the real world. Looking like death is upon you an amazingly your alive but it's not worth it... trust me it's not cool at all.

I can't say really, as thankfully I've never been in an addiction. Well, maybe 'mental' ones, not drugs or alcohol. In First Aid tourniquets are banned now. I see, it's as a tourniquet of one's soul. The worst thing is saying 'Snap out of it'. But must be some way out somehow, sometime,.....

a life that's wasted
a breath that's gone
he knows he's been fighting this addiction too long
he says he's sorry
he says he'll try
he thinks of a prayer and looks up to the sky
It hurts so much, he just can't stop
he shoots the drugs until he drops
he drops his hopes
he drops his spirit
his soul cries out, you just can't hear it
a life that's wasted
a breath that's gone
the results of heroin
he just couldn't move on
he slowly lets go
he slowly is dying
he takes his last breaths
and quickly starts crying
his life is gone now, wasted away
the day his life ends, today is the day

You think I don't know about those times you threw dirt on my name, but guess wat i aint trippin.
I just find it disturbing you would do that. I thought highly of you when others didn't.
At first i wanted to step to you and confront you but yo lies aint worth my breathe to ask for.
I just rather look atchu laugh shake my head and close tha door. It use to make a negga feel fucked up to my core.
I use to be like damn not you. Not tha one who told me all this shit that sound real that was really gettin presented to me ill.
Huh....you think i didn't know about my business bein on that dotted line and hard pavement. I thought we were more solid than that.
You can't trust those who act like yo foes and act like they love you to moon and back.
You told me you wouldn't do me like that im like lol um huh yeah you should've cut yo own tongue out and disposed it yourself.
You know day one you always click and crank good like car and a seatbelt, but once you get down that interstate tha tires go flat and you left changin all four by yoself.
You think I don't know how they knew about wat you claim i did but i had to write tha story that got scrabbled up like eggs in a skillet.
You think I don't know about tha lies you exposed to me. That you say you didn't say about me lol ohhhh i know. You'll cross yo own friend and slit they neck if i didn't know any better.
Don't try to switch it and jump down my throat i know you feel offended. Why so serious? Like tha joker is how im presenting it.
Why you lie to me? I don't know, but just remember don't think that i dont know.

You could have said no, and just walked away. If you could live that day over, now what would you say? I'll be your master, you will be my slave. I'll even go with you, when you go to your grave. Now that you have met me, what will you do? Will you try me or not? It's all up to you. I can bring you more misery than words can tell. Come take my hand, let me lead you to hell.