Damned

As close as we may stand, our Relationship, it’s been damned

The mother I want you to be, a mother I will never see

Emotionless and emptiness, is this what you wanted

All our memories, all our thoughts, our dreams have been haunted

Opinions and comments are more than just said, we get it breakfast, lunch, and dinner

Constantly fed

You tell us to be ourselves, speak up when things are not right

As long as it doesn’t upset you that is, or prepare for a fight

Unless you are happy no one else can ride high

Everyone in your path, ripped right from the sky

When I got older I thought it would be better, live my life my way

Right to the letter

As much as I hoped that’s not the case is it

My person, my being who I was, bitten

I hold back what I want so you will be pleased

Because everyone knows it’s all about what you need

Two children you birthed, you gave us life

Just to play our strings, and boy don’t you pull tight

You tell us you love us and that you truly care

But when things don’t go your way

To you we are just people, dog eat dog world

Seems only fair

You said you did all that you should, never you abused us

Never you would

But the memories they haunt us, they eat us up

But I think you know that, you’re just as messed up

From the moment you wake up you look for a fight

You’re more than just a bark, you have a mean bite

You’re nasty, you’re cruel like a devil inside

Who is your victim, how do you decide?

Your children they hide, yes we avoid as we need

Because when we are around your anger it feeds

You are my demon my monster under the bed

As a child it wasn’t shadows that scared me

But rather you instead

As I get older I have emotions I cannot tame

You emotionless without reason

I feel it’s you to blame

I’m not the only one who feels this way

Sadly it’s true

Tonya ran away all because of you

As much as I love you and as much as I care

I have so much anger that around you I’m scared

I can snap at any moment you know that it’s true

I’m sorry to say my first victim would be you