Confused

Carmine

Confused in my soul

Confused in my heart

Confused in my mind

I Don't know what this feeling is

I Don't know why it beats so hard

I Don't know why there are so many things

Where am i?

What is my purpose

What is my answer

Let me free from this 

Show me my feelings from deep in

Don't say weird things to make me madman

Am I lost?

Am I sad?

Am I broken?

Is there something wrong?

Why is it empty?

Am I out of place?

 

Where did this happen and when did I think about it.

Why do I think about it, I just wanna smile and enjoy myself.

There is nothing wrong I promise but yet you feel like there is.

I feel confused looking right and left, like I am missing something.

I do want to tell everything, but I don't know what or where to start with. 

To be honest because I have so much in my mind or use to, there is always something out of my minds reach that I know exist but can't say. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I guess all the recent events, have kinda made me think about stuff...

Like stuff I thought about in the past.

 

Love and relationships

Anger and criminality

Sadness and Depression

 

I have done shit I regret 

but I also done shit I like and love

I started to open up and love others again

I started going out doing ilegal stuff again

and

I started to feel Depression again from thinking about the past and recent events

Events that causes problems and tears to my friends

to

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

you

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

two

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I just wish I could do more then, just being a bro watching from the sidelines when I know shit is happening.

I just wish I could give real hugs and kisses to give comfort to both of you.

Because I feel it myself that there is something wrong and out of place.

 

 

 

 

 

 

This is probably not the best poem, but this is more of a way to let something out.

I would type it like the rest, but I feel the confusing inside and outside of me tearing me apart.

 

Just be safe and stay strong 

alone and together.

  • Author: Sunflower of Yesterday (Pseudonym) (Offline Offline)
  • Published: May 13th, 2018 17:10
  • Category: Unclassified
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  • SLR

    Powerful and definitely things to think on. I think you have an old soul. I use my writing as therapy and a way to work things out in my mind. That's what writers do. Keep writing. Healthy way to vent. I'll watch for your next post .:-)

    • Carmine

      I also write as a therapy to keep myself healthy, but my posts are mostly feelings or thoughts and also maybe a reflection of a recent event that I want to shout out but can't. In this site I have the free will of speech to say what bothers me or is stuck in my mind. One thing about poetry is also if you are confused and don't know what bothers you, just turn on music and write and you will later realize that the poem you created has many words and meaning. Sometimes other people find stuff that is bothering you without you realizing it yourself.

      But thanks for posting on my poems and be safe alright.
      Also have a nice day and hope you found some moments of rest.

    • swyndell

      Wow..amazing. Great write, you definitely have talent, and I can see you're using your feelings to create art, impressive.



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