I love you

When did "I Love You" become so brittle vowels and consonants crumbling as i force them past my tired lips

My mouth becomes a dessert and I try to swallow but the lump in my throat swells ten times the size of my broken heart

The oceans behind my eyes threaten to come crashing against the jagged rocks that are the questions that I can't answer because I don't know why I'm sad, darling

Thick vines grow and wrap themselves around my neck, choking the life from my hopes and dreams as my face turns purple like the bruises I inflict on myself in the places that no one will look

I love you I love you I love you

I know that I do and it shouldn't be so hard for me to let you hold me but the folds of my stomach make me want to fold in on myself, crease my skin like origami paper so maybe I can be something pretty

I love you

But I don't love myself