We never met

I loved how much we talked, 

Like it actually meant something,

But for you,

It's nothing,

For me,

it's torture.

 

Apparently you knew him for many months,

You didn't know if he was from there or not,

Then you told me,

"I want to talk to you more"

When in fact,

Instead of being happy,

I cried,

Because next day,

You said it again,

You said it is us 2,

You said next day that hurt even more,

Because you tried to make it seem like it simply happened

 

This time,

My heart broke,

And shed even more tears,

Tears that left scars on my face,

Tears that were shed for u,

 

You said it simply happened,

Yet you lied again,

Now we do not talk anymore,

I dance hours,

Just to put a smile,

I sweat,

I faint,

I die

 

We both love the same band,

The same artist,

We both hate our lives,

We both knew it.

 

But it came where you posted those stories,

Those stories that made me feel like I died in hell,

Cause never will those stories refer to me

 

I saw yesterday,

2 guys laughing,

They saw with her,

She wasn't nothing but just a friend,

They asked me if she mine,

Then told me you are mine,

But I died to deny the truth

 

Because they said you were ugly,

And I laughed,

Because they would know if I didn't,

They knew I cared for you

 

Then I left and smiled at her,

I said everything was ok,

When in fact,

It is not

 

I defended you in front of her,

She made fun of you, 

He'd never do that,

When it's all a lie,

When it's all fake love,

Cause I love you so bad,

That people come up to me, 

And laugh cause I care so much,

They talk behind your back,

And I defend you,

Now I won't

 

Everyone made fun of us,

And I said no to it,

I did my best to try hide how much it hurts,

But now it is not worth it no more,

You blocked me,

I did not,

I needed to suffer that pain,

Cause I lied so I could make you happy,

Now I need to suffer even more,

Just because I considered you the only person I needed,

Because I thought it was us against them,

 

I know that I am an idiot now,

Thinking I could win a girl like you,

Beautiful as ever,

Lips as honey,

Hair as silk,

Face like a fairy,

But clearly it was in my mind,

Because we both know it is in my mind,

And that it will never happen,

And that him happened cause I didn't show up

 

We couldn't even talk in person,

But you could with him,

Imagine being in my head,

Seeing what I see,

Imagining what I am imagining,

My heart breaking into a million pieces,

You have even achieved your goal

 

"You have me"

"I have you"

Lies that simply get deeper,

That kill me,

I even sent you that smile :) ,

Well it meant nothing to you,

Because 1 month later,

The smile died,

Just how much more do you want me to die,

Cause in fact,

I hate you,

 

If that guy truly loves you, 

And you knew him for many months,

Then he would have said what I and your parents did,

Which he clearly did not,

He would have stood up for you against her,

But he did not 

 

Now I have to see,

Your face everyday,

And I have to take in the pain that is inside of me,

I need to slowly die,

And pretend,

We never met.