Dear family

Dear family, I know it's hard for you to listen but I feel imprisoned, I don't know how to escape, I'm a victim of own my self-hate and defeat

Mum and Dad, I love you, I'm sorry if I let you down But my heart is so torn, I wish I was never born into this nightmare 

To my Brother's I'm sorry but I'm slowly letting go, Life's too hard to the point where I want to let go

You won't understand the way I feel but my heart is broken there nothing there know more 

Every time I fall I feel my soul getting weaker, I don't want to breathe, I'm just begging on my knees for all this to end

Every day I'm going numb, I don't want to stay I just want to run  

I'm sorry family but I got dark thoughts jamming up my mind

I try to go forward but its like I'm stuck in place, the devil is gripping hold of me 

Can you tell me what you see when you look at me?

All of my wounds are hidden deep

I don't feel love any more, I just don't feel the love anymore, nothing feels real anymore

I'm thankful for all the memories and the empty smiles 

I hope you listened to what I had to say 

I'm sorry family