It's hard to write because when I do I feel, something I am trying to suppress. I don't know why today is so hard. But it is. And I miss you, more than you know. More than I should. And I can't move on, I don't want too. But I know you have. And it seems as if everyone around me is moving forward, but I am as still as the water before a rocks disturbed its peace. What you have done to mine. It's hard without you, too hard. In a world with vivid colors and the sun there is where you live. A world with closed curtains and countless black holes is where I reside, searching, for you. For us. But its like a never ending maze, like searching for humanity in this world. A flood of disappointment. I long to stay alone, to never allow this feeling again. I can simply not survive it. Its reached its limit and I desperately hope their is one.
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Roselyn (
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Allow your feelings or unfeelings to guide your writing. Thank you for sharing.
Welcome to MPS good write for first post hope to see more. ww
I found “A Longing” today and I like what you wrote here. Your writing here is very honest and I feel your words. I really like reading your words, “And it seems as if everyone around me is moving forward, but I am as still as the water before a rocks disturbed its peace. “ I know that feeling and it is very moving to see someone else write that. A number of years ago I was drowning in that feeling.
I’m a slow learner, but I’m trying to learn to accept the pain of loss. When I’ve tried to numb that pain, to forget that pain, ignore it or rip it out of me, I ended up losing a lot of time living self destructively. I have also discovered that when I try to steer away from that pain, it robs me of so much. In my experience, losing someone through death or the changing seasons and circumstances of life can be unbearably painful. Death causes the most intense feelings of loss for me. However, a friend or someone I love can take different path in life, a path without me. The people that are very dear to me may move on to a future that does not include me or that makes relationships hard to maintain. That hurts. But when I try to steer from that pain, it always robs me of the good memories and good feelings I want to hold on to. It also seems to blind me in varying ways to new opportunities that might come my way.
Thank you for writing this.
Kindest Regards.
I absolutely love your response and every word hit home for me. This is how I have been feeling since I wrote this. The pain is unbearable of loss and I truly do feel it lingering and unable to make new memories. But hopefully this won't be true forever.
Thank you so much for your response! xoxo
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