A healing write to turn my anger into light

 Justice! This word and feeling can still trigger me off. For just the other day I had to stop myself from getting out my car, as the rage that went through my body felt out of control for someone using there horn at me, for them! cutting Me! up.

I couldn't see till now what my intention was going to be if I did get out of my car, because I many of been acting on an emotion but its always something deeper, it took me hours to let go of how much I wanted to drag him out and make him see what he did from my angle

The feeling that someone is getting away consequence free, that I never got to give the punishment I wanted and they still live happily, maybe even more than me.
This comes from childhood and I'm telling that person and myself back then and now, I love, forgive and except us for who they are, that there must of been worse before.

In writing this as I wish to apologise to the man in the car
For you were obviously showing that we have similar scars
As our enslavement to emotions brought conditioned beliefs
Unknowing forgetting everything is ment to be
All going back into the cycle forever changing what is.

I wrote this at night then still couldn't sleep
Wondering why I still felt so angry about what transpired
Then I saw exactly what it was, he wanted me to go faster, so cut right up beside, threatening to hit my car if I didn't oblige, as the lanes were merging I thought I had no choice.

I had so many choices for that I now understand
But when threatened with "do it or else"
I lose my plan wanting to take justice into my own hands
This must be the reason for writing this all out
To remind myself or any other that come across this vibration, that I know from experience the ones who threatened violence are far more unhappy than you.

I'm backing up my backup plan
In hope when this next happens
I'll be the man that I see in me
Love, compassion and understanding