Unrequited Adoration pt. 3

Maybe it was your voice

Or perhaps maybe it was your intelligence

Possibly even your good looks or your confidence

Whatever the case may be, I know one thing

Since I met you

Something about me changed

It was for the absolute best

And I thank you for it

Countdowns fill my mind

And they’re all about you

Seconds until your next response

Minutes left until I see you

Hours left before our talks

Days left before you leave

Months left until you return

Years left until we can see each other every day

How did we get here?

Emailing constantly

Eagerly awaiting each other’s replies

Smiling at each other when we make eye contact

Enjoying each other’s company

Helping each other when we need it

Complimenting each other on our song covers

And trusting each other with things we’ve never told anyone else

How is it possible for one person

To motivate me this much?

You’re taking a hiatus

And I won’t talk to you for a while

All I wanted to do was sleep until I could see you again

But I got out of bed and started working

Because if you can do it

Then so can I

I think about you all the time

More than I’d like to admit, really

You’re my favorite person, hands down

And I’m so in love with everything about you

In a crowd of people, I will always look for you

In a symphony of sound, I will always listen for your voice

In a day of feeling down, I will always turn to you for a smile

In a week of stress, I will always think of the time I spent with you

I don’t understand why I still get shy around you

I don’t understand why I still mess up my words

I don’t understand how I still giggle too much when I’m with you

I don’t understand how I still get butterflies in my stomach

But what I do understand is this

I love you more than words can ever express

I am looking forward to the future more and more every day

And I cherish every single moment I spend with you

I’ll try my absolute best to make it without you being a quick drive away

I’ll try my absolute best to stay motivated without being able to see you

I’ll try my absolute best not to give up when you won’t be able to help me

I’ll try my absolute best to keep smiling even when we can’t talk

I’ll do it for you

Because you’re worth it

And because if I don’t

Then I’ll feel like I’ve failed you somehow

I’m gonna miss catching the bus just to go see you at school

I’m hoping there will be contact soon

But I also want you to take all the time you need

Don’t apologize for it

Do what you need to do

I’ll be here patiently waiting for you

It will all be okay

And everything will work itself out

May 23rd, 2018 might have just been the best day of my life

I got to hold your hand 90% of the time

I got to see a Broadway show with someone who was equally invested in it

I got to sit with you and talk about everything and nothing at the same time

I stole your chocolate shake and loved it

And I laid on your shoulder on the way home

I didn’t even mind that I couldn’t fall asleep

Because talking with you was a lot better than resting my eyes for a while

Thank you for everything

Thank you for the laughs

Thank you for the smiles

Thank you for loving me back

Thank you for tolerating me

Thank you for being there for me

And thank you for existing

Without you, I wouldn’t have a reason to get up and smile every day

You are the most respectful and understanding guy I’ve ever met

You are incredibly thoughtful and a downright phenomenal human being

Your chocolate brown eyes are so mesmerizing and I love to get lost in them

Your voice catches me off guard every single time because it’s so gorgeous

Your smile lights up my entire universe, even when I don’t think it can get any brighter

And your kisses take my breath away every single time

And as this trilogy comes to a close, I realize something profound—

It would seem that my adoration is no longer unrequited