know love

"she needs to know herself
before she falls in love again."
said by rex orange county
I repeat that to myself very loudly
I've been in this situation many times
and I find myself to feel this way every single time
maybe it's just cause I dont understand my feelings
maybe I just need to find myself before I love another human being
I've been trying to find myself
but nothing ever seems to help
everytime I try to work on myself
& I feel like I'm doing good
but right when I start to love someone else, I get misunderstood
misunderstood, thinking I love myself
thinking everything is just fine
but in reality things aren't " fine" sometimes
maybe that's why I cant seem to look you in the eyes
maybe that's why my love dies
my love dies because I truly dont love myself
so maybe should put my feelings on the shelf
hold them off for a while
and find myself
make myself truly smile
so please dont get me wrong
I'm in love with you
so please just stay strong
for me n you
who knows, maybe if it were meant to be I'd come back to you.