Why Did You Let Me?

I feel Oh God,

that I am on a level,

where we can talk to eachother,

however we want.

So I ask you.

Why did you let me do it?

Why did you not show me,

how hard it would?

You Let me give,

my life to you,

and yet you did not ask me,

if I was sure.

You know I am not,

the type of person to except help.

You know I have trust issues.

You know I had seizures,

and you know that I was never,

the outspoken type.

Yet you allowed me,

to ask for your salvation.

I try to make light of it,

but the burden is to heavy.

All it takes is one more stress,

and that will be the straw,

that breaks the camel's back.

I get so angry with you sometimes,

because you rarely give me,

a straight answer.

When will this end?

If you send me a friend,

how I know if I can trust them?

As I said,

I feel that I,

am on a level,

where I can express myself to you.


(I sigh)

you are God,

and I chose you.

I know I can,

express myself to you.

Be that as it may,

I suppose,

you ARE there for me.



  • Frogspoetry

    Amen.sometimes.I feel like our hard times are more stressful because we put our faith and trust in God yet we still feel like a failure.but when we are going through our trials and tribulations is the times that He is carrying us.( Google the footprints in the sand poem) I feel closer to Him when I hurt I side and out.I often feel the way you do in this poem.

    • ForeverJesus6

      Thank you for replying. I actually have framed picture of, 'footprints in the Sand', hanging on my wall. Your words are very encouraging.
      Persistence is Key

      • Frogspoetry

        I have it on my keychain,it's a favorite of mine.

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      • orchidee

        A fne write Forever. There is faith in this, and similar themes, as you still are 'in contact' with God, and He with you. If you had abandoned your faith, you wouldn't bother to think about or believe in God at all.

        • ForeverJesus6

          Thank you, I appreciate it.
          Persistence is key

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