The rain falls. Heavy.
I stand in the middle wondering where to go next.
I see others around me.
But I can't speak to them.
Trust lays a path in front of me.
But that path cant be crossed.
It hurts when everyone in that rain is trying reach you.
But the only thing that is stoping them is the wall you built to stop them.
Some try to climb.
But the wall grows ever more as they try.
I just want to hear them again. I want to climb that wall.
But I cant....
Because if I do.
I'm going to get hurt.
THEN WHY DONT YOU CUT THEM ALL OUT? NUMB YOURSELF.
Because.. If I do then ill lose who I am.
WHO CARES? NO ONE EVER ASKED FOR YOUR WELL BEING ANYWAYS. THEY ALL TURNED AROUND AND WALKED AWAY WHEN YOU WERE AT YOUR WORST. THEY ONLY CARED TO USE YOUR KINDNESS.
I can't believe that it's not true everybody has their reasons. I don't deserve to have peoples comfort or love.
EXACTLY YOUR WORTHLESS. NUMB YOURSELF. DISTANCE FROM EVERYONE. HIDE YOURSELF WITH MASKS. CREATE SOMEONE ELSE THAT PEOPLE HATE. THAT PEOPLE DONT WANT. YOU DONT NEED ANYBODY. You're A NOBODY.
Your right..... Who needs a lost cause?
Someone who can't even finish what they started.
To become numb again... I cant feel.
Falling I always will be. Dancing only with myself.
On a night not to regret I cast a shadow but not mine a shape of hate.
I see only this shadow in my weeping wake.
Of a mourning of which I cant move only I not from the bed of which i lay.
The music plays yet over and over the sorrow overwhelms the sound.
I start to hear the voice taking over and only my shadow moves.
How can I trust anybody when all of the pain was mine?
It was all my fault.
I don't deserve any of this.
Fall deeper.
Come closer.
But why?
Why must I?
To only have a feel again.
To only trust.
To only be more.
I want to be more.
Only.. It's funny.
It's raining....heavy.
-Eternis
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Eternis (Pseudonym) (
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- Comment from author about the poem: This poem will send many mixed signals to you. In fact, you may question the very being of my thoughts and what I think. Just know that. Some of the poems I write will leave you like a book without an ending. Always in question. But as you read the pieces to my puzzle maybe you will begin to understand the pain. Take care. Stay kind.
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Arrghh, it sent me plenty mixed signals. it appears all in Greek! Something to do with the script or uploading I think.
I can translate - may come back in about 3 years to comment! lol.
Thanks? That comment sent me mixed signals to be honest.
Brilliant work! ~ E
Thank you.
Well, some poems seem to appear all in Greek language for some reason - as it has done so on my laptop. It's something to do with uploading I think, but I don't know all the details.
I meant - I can translate Greek slowly. it may take me 3 years to translate your long poem! heehee.
That's odd and my apologies. That is charming.
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