Little Girl

There's still the little girl inside her,

Who just wishes her dad would care,

Care enough to try,

Care enough to cry,

Care enough to want to be in her life.

She pushes those feelings down,

Pretends she doesn't care,

Pretends she doesn't need him,

Says she'd better off without him,

Says she gave up and left him in the past.

The thoughts creep in her mind everyday,

I wonder if he cares,

I wonder if he's cried,

Why won't he even try,

Am i really so bad that he left me behind.

Her siblings get messages that he misses them so,

She looks at her phone with no message received,

The little girl inside her starts to cry,

Its always been them never her,

At least she knows mommas there.

Never had a father figure in her life,

Even her uncle chose her sister to be like a dad to her,

The little girl inside feels so depleted,

Knowing none of the men in her life ever tried to care about her,

And they wonder why she built up a wall.

Momma tells her to buck up and that she doesn't need them,

She bucks up and hides her feelings because mommas been in her shoes before,

But momma it's different this time,

Your dad loved you from day one and your mom kept you away,

My dad seen me as a mistake since day one and even with rights to see me he never did.

You could say looking at her now she lives a good life,

Nineteen years can change a girl,

She buried the little girl deep down inside her,

She tries not to let her feelings get the best of her,

If only he could see what kind of wall he helped her build over heart.