Nevermore Shall I Surrender Poem, by Anasyil, at My poetic side

Is my innocence worth proving?

At the risk of my happiness?

Or should I pick my battles,

and let my enemies win this one?

The mouth is poisonous;

the rumors are contagious.

I am the victim trap in

the sea of my attacker’s lies.

Nothing I say, nor evidence I show

can convince the community

that I am innocent

because my attacker has

power and control over it.

Life will never be fair.

This, I must accept.

Those with power abuse it.

Those with none become scapegoats.

I fought to prove my innocence,

but I lost my happiness.

Nevermore shall I surrender

my happiness for a community

with little respect for the powerless.

I will go; I will leave

to find a new community

that will do me no harm

or create my own

where I hold power not to abuse

but to save the lives of others.

Go ahead and attack me

with your poisonous mouth

and contagious rumors online.

Soon, you will see

the length of my happiness

from saving others while

you end up wasting away

trying to destroy me.

I will achieve my dreams

while you become a shadow

that haunts me daily.

I will let you win

so that my happiness remains

and accomplish my dreams;

complete my projects:

saving lives, protecting survivors,

perform onstage, write my books,

studying medicine and most importantly,

maintaining happiness.

Go ahead and spread

your rumors and lies,

but I will continue

to achieve my dreams

and remain happy.

Nevermore shall I surrender

my happiness.

Author: Anasyil ( Offline)
Published: July 20th, 2018 18:10
Comment from author about the poem: Many of us have been a victim of rumors. The sad thing about rumors is it can destroy a person's reputation and self-esteem. It is cruel and egregious. There are so many pernicious people out there that had attempted to destroy my reputation and my mental health. Unfortunately, they have succeeded. I was never popular in school. I do what I can to succeed and help others, but it seems like I also attract envious and cruel people who are so bent to see me fail. I often question my life. Why does this happen to me? Why is it that no matter what good I do, I still come across people who are ought to see me fall apart? But I always remind myself this: I am not alone. Everyone goes through this. Everyone has met people trying so hard to destroy them. I always have my friends and family. When I get a random email, text, note or other forms of communication from others thanking me for helping them, I could not help but feel touched and tear a bit. Because little things like this remind me that I can save the lives of others one step at a time. The reality of life is no matter what you do, there is always someone trying to destroy you. The only thing I can do is let go, continue achieving my dreams, help save lives, and most importantly, staying happy. My dear readers, your happiness comes first. The words of others do not matter. As long as you know the rumors are not true, and you know it's not worth fighting, and you know you can be happy, that's all that matters. I am open to consoling as I also do peer counseling in my free time. I will advise you and help you the best way I can.
Category: Reflection
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