I've Realized Something

You know what I realize?

I'm quiet.

I'm polite.

I'm shy.

I'm afraid to tell people how I really feel most of the time because I don't want them to be upset with me.

That's not healthy.

You know what else I've realized?

Eventually, I will snap about a situation.

In some cases, I regret it.

In other cases, I don't.

It all depends on who the person/people involved is/are in general and how they've treated me.

Treat me with kindness and respect and love?

Yeah, I'll regret going off on/about you because you're lovely.

I shouldn't have treated such a great person that way.

You didn’t deserve it, and I wish you nothing but the best.

But treat me with ignorance and disrespect and rudeness?

No, I won't feel bad about going off on/about you.

You deserved it, burn in hell for all I care.

And all of this goes unsaid and no one experiences it until they cross me.

People don’t realize how bitter and angry I can be.

All they see is the cutesy persona I display, and I’m okay with that.