Graduation

Since they walked me into preschool,

all I could do is run.

The horizon only held fog,

dreams of what was beyond was all I had

these last few years I've seen people leave

Dropping off that edge to a place I've never been.

This year, its arrived.

I've tripped back

and burned my heals

looking into the void

for my whole life

I've been running

at what i thought was life

and even if where I am now

is known as the first stage

may of been a sea of blackness, and hate

but the few things I don't want to lose

a family

and someone to hold

if I jump to what is new

I may lose what is dark and damp

and gain happiness

but what if I lose

whats good here

there is a dark void

that tells me nothing

other than i have to step into it

willingly or not

so i have to brace myself now

wrap my arms around myself

take a deep breath

remember all I have

all I love

and all I don't

to place my toes at the edge of life

swallowing everything I know

and without any real choice

falling head first

screaming on the inside

withholding my fear

tomorrow I'll wake up

and have to be someone else

without ever figuring out

who I am here