my fault

No one ever told me it was my fault

Instead they look me in the eyes and say

you should have fought back

you should have know better than to drink

you should have screamed

you should have been smarter

you should have been more careful

you should have

you should have

you should have

my ex boy friend told me

if it really was rape

then im sorry

as if i don't know what rape is

as if the lines are a little too blurred

as if the police weren't involved so it didnt happen

im starting to doubt what really happened

some times i think i must have been asking for it

i put my self in compromising situations 

and trust "No"

to save me

i consider a date

a compromising situation

I consider a few drinks

a compromising situation

I consider car rides

a compromising situation

and im tired of being afraid

sex with out dominance

feels like assault

making love sounds like a threat

no one ever told me it was my fault

but they say

I should have know better than to think

my body was my own