Firebird

Pain.

In a moment of weakness she gave herself 10 deep scars that would never leave her skin. A constant reminder of how in this moment life got to hard, the expectations of reality set the bar to high and that the blunt pain of a cut was the only thing that could make her feel something, anything just so she could try to be normal instead of being the numb shell of a person she didn't even recognise anymore, she could remind herself she was real. It was the only way she could think of to control the voices in her head, so she could focus on the blood running down her arm instead of the how fat she was or all of the times she had failed so many things and people.

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  • HangingbyaHalo

    Reading this broke my heart I can remember feeling this way.
    Painfully beautiful.

    After reading your writing I trace the scares I left on my legs I have three that I don’t think will ever fade.

    Know this,

    These days do not last forever, if you choose to dig do so with a pen let the ink take the place of the blood you focus on.

    I understand the want to feel something
    Anything

    Close your eyes and listen to the heart beating in your chest... you know the crazy thing about that heart.

    It may feel pain and may even break a few times in your life.

    But it will keep beating.

    Keep your head up and feel free to reach out even if it is just to talk.

    With love,
    -B-

    • Firebird

      Wow. Thank you so much. You don't know how much this means to me, I actually made me cry a little. I would love to talk more. Again thank you.

    • Crystal Hope

      wow! So incredible,finely done,and quite moving.

      • Firebird

        Thank you so much

      • jenny.g

        Very powerful and moving write.

        • Firebird

          Thank you so much :)



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