Its Over

i told you the last fight was going to be the last fight...

but surprisingly i was the one who initiated the sex topic talk..

because im the one who broke up with him officially.

there was no fight but the thought of the sex fight has been killing me since it happened on may 29th into may 30th.

and i broke up with him july 5th into july 6th.

who knew a two day fight would have ended up in a two day break up.

he said "sex is the only thing guys want, but ill wait for you"...sorry but what the actual fuck???!!!!

for the people who know my past they are very proud of me because i usually ignore red flags and cant see when things get toxic...

and i have a big problem of letting people go and so this was a personal relief because i was the fighter.

and like the fighter i am i fought to keep us together a few times but it got to the point where it was getting in my head everyday..

and one day i realized this needs to end...

just because im not a virgin doesnt mean i fuck every guy that comes into my life!!

this relationship was affecting my mental and physical health.

he said to me..

" i dont want to be unfaithful to you baby"!!!

"just let me break up with you already"!!!

"i will give you one more month for the love i have left for you"!!!...

... meaning he'll break up with me in a month if i dont have sex with him...

"sex is the only thing guys want"!!!

"i dont trust you anymore"!!!

"i dont know if im being honest with myself if i say i love you"!!!!

what the actual fuck???!!!!

i told you the last fight was going to be the last fight!

didnt i say that two fights ago?

yea i did so i was way overdue.

you can never take back what you said...

so therefore its done...

its over...

all my siblings know why i broke up with you...

because in this fight you threatened to break up with me because i havent had sex with you...

and now youve threatened to break up with me in a month if i didnt have sex with you in your so called "deadline"

but my father doesnt know...

but one day i will tell him...

so sleep with one eye open because you have no idea when i will tell him...

and neither do i...

its done.

its over..

and now goodbye.