My mind

One moment in the loud

but now

a moment in the silence

from shouting and screaming

to

silence and whispers

in my head

I can tell that something

is still here

still there

the sounds echoes

over and over

the beat of my heart of strings

 

I can't tell where went

right to wrong

or

wrong to right

I only know that we can do

difference

but we can't tell 

until someone shouts it out

to our little rain clouds over us

to become brighter

and

to open our eyes in the presence

and

not the past

 

Because no matter it is all just an echo

that will continue until your peace is found

but even in the peace you will find the violence

from a tight hug to isolation for a minute

that can become days and weeks if left

by our mind

 

But even if it is a long period of pain

it is still a lullaby for our ears

to tell us that it is not the pain

but the progress of what happen

before it

 

So when the echoes stop

we can finally open our eyes

and

hear others once again

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

but no matter how many times

I'm close to someone

hearing them say

''I'm here''

I'll still hear the echoes

of my heart

and

the strings that gets pulled

to finally smile

 

I miss you

even if you are a voice

because your voice gives me peace

at least for the moment you are here

 

So don't worry

and

don't let the tears run dry like mine

because the rain drops shows you still

have something left

 

something i once said to myself

''It is not the feeling of getting a partner that is called love''

''it is a feeling of accidentally finding a friend that your willing to spend you days with''

''For fun and not for lust''

 

but in this echoes 

many things strike me from all directions

but all that they have in common

is making my

go none stop

until i find my answer

to

have my peace

in my mind

in my heart

and

in my soul

 

So let me free

and

out of my head

my mind

 

-K4nki3