Sorry mom
For being a disappointment
I'm sorry sister
for embarrassing you at school
I'm sorry brother
Being as ugly as I am
All your friends laugh at me
They tell you they are sorry that you are related to me
You laugh
Anxiety claws up my throat
I feel so self-conscious
The cuts on my wrists ache
I bend with every blow people send my way
Telling me I'm not good enough
But I will stand my ground
I am tired of being pushed around
I can't take this anymore
You think this is a joke but it is not
Everyday I live with the fact that I AM a disappointment
I cut myself to relieve my pain but it only causes more
I can't breathe when people talk about me
When I walk through the high school halls it feels like everyone is judging me
Depression sets in
You think I'm looking for attention
But I'm really not
It gets cold in here
I scream at you to help me but you don't listen
I am drowning in all of this
Anxiety
Depression
Everything
You just look at me, smile, and say I'll be okay
that it is just a phase
It's not
I drown in sorrow everyday
No one to help me
I am broken
I am sorry
I'm so so sorry
I'm sorry I'm not good enough
I'm sorry I screw up
I'm sorry I'm human
I'm sorry
- Author: Cynthia Whittaker (Pseudonym) ( Offline)
- Published: November 14th, 2018 18:37
- Comment from author about the poem: Meant to be read as a poetry slam. it's my first one so please leave feedback
- Category: Unclassified
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- Users favorite of this poem: Mads, prettylittlepoet
Comments1
First and foremost, beauty is an opinion, it changes and fades over time.
Mistakes are things to be learned from and rarely to be apologized for. Depression, suicide, cutting, or any form of self-harm is never a joking matter. As someone who doesn't have an emotional/mental support system at home, I understand how frustrating, tiring, and how soul-crushing it can be when someone doesn't believe you.
I won't say I'm sorry for you, its a phrase overused, and it never fully expands upon how a person feels. Instead, I sympathize with you and hope you find the support you need. Ps. just from the top half of your face, YOU ARE GORGEOUS girl, got it, and don't ever forget it.
thank you very much
There's no need to thank me, you did all the work. Your poem is absolutely beautiful.
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