My 18th Birthday

its that time of year again and it will be until its my very last birthday until i die.

saturday...

its my 18th birthday!!

its not my last but its an important one.

im an adult now..

theres so much that will change but yet there isnt.

it all depends on who you are and your situation.

i remember writing about my 17th birthday last year and right now im trying to cherish being 17.

but lets be  honest its going to be cool being 18 but yet its not...

if you get in trouble with the law..you go to adult court,

your parents can decide to kick you out and theres no excuse of not having a job at this age.

you start worrying about being an adult and paying bills, student loans, and all that shit.

to be honest i wish i could stay 17 or 18 forever or skip to 25.

but i got to enjoy being young i cant always worry about the future..

but i have to take time to think about the future and take all the steps to do what i got to do to succeed.

i want to watch myself grow and graduate high school,

i want to watch myself love my career and work hard and be proud.

at my graduation party i want to play the song "congratulations" by post malone because i well ass know im going to cry when i get handed that high school diploma that i dead ass deserve.

i want to cry even thinking about it and i dont cry out of happiness much.

i have to make a commitment to myself to organize my time to achieve my goals along with watching my weight and managing my personal goals.

i want the freedom to hang with whoever i want.

i have more wisdom and common sense than i did a few years ago.

i wouldnt trust to be friends with anyone if i felt like i could be endangered by them.

i well know who im talking to, who i love, and all my friends and if i had weird vibes i would dig a little deeper and then decide.

i want to have friends over whenever i want..

well i could if wanted but i dont have my license and a car to drop everything and get them or run to the store to get some groceries or anything like that..

but im sure someday there will come a time where i will be able to do so but right now i need to focus on having fun being 18 while maintaining a healthy variety of what i need to do as an adult but for the next 24 hours to the last hour im going to enjoy being 17.

happy birthday

happy 18th birthday

ill be 18 but ill still be a kid at heart when i want and an adult and handle situations in a mature manner when i need to.

my family tells me to be more mature..

little do they know i can be really mature but when the time calls for it.

ive handled so many situations maturely that they dont even know about.

sometimes i can be a 10 years old but other times i can be a real ass mature adult.

i wonder what the world will bring me when i turn 18...

the world: bills, get a mother fucking job, get an education, stop being a goofy bitch, actually study in school, do more than expected, vote, relearn consumer math, keep your room clean...

me: OK SHIT< GOD DAMN

im getting off track but thats life but im excited to be 18..

but im happy being 17...

but right now before saturday comes...

im going to let all my worries slip away...