Queen

My children keep arriving

So do my new friends 

I am starting to end my negative thoughts patterns

Stopping to look both ways before crossing streets 

I have stood at crossroads many times before 

My heart cannot ignore me now 

Shit really does go both ways

Being lazy doesn't pay the bills

My will is strengthening more and more every day

In a way, I feel like I am still a Queen..but I need someone to sit beside me on my throne

Never alone, yet still missing something big

My will is to find myself a man, the perfect one

My idea of perfect is different than it has ever been before

I am wiser 

I have become like granite, solid and immovable 

Magical and healing

My feelings have become much easier to cloak

When they come at me , it's always a funny joke

Give them a toke, a smoke, a dollar

Anything to send them on their way

I am the point of no return at times

Enough is enough when enough is enough

There is no way around it with me

I am real, single, sexy, free

Live and let live

Love and let love

Honor each other, blessed be!

They know somehow to come to me and I feel terrible that I cannot always respond

I often need my alone time, even when I am in love

I don't know why that is, but I know it's what is best for me

I should always cater to its wishes

For, when they are successfully avoided, soon after comes the wrath

Hell hath no fury like the hidden side of me

Its just what ends up happening when mother fuckers keep coming at me sideways

Just leave me the fuck alone you ignorant, greed-ridden imbeciles!

I am only the one bitch even though I am good at what I do

Who are any of you to push me further after I have already told you fools no?

You think I am a heartless cunt?

Well, you haven't seen jack shit yet, try me

You have all put your own asses behind me trying to get the fuck ahead

Really?

Fuck, it's hard enough just keeping ahead of myself

You couldn't be me, believe me

You are wrong when you become envious of me

A Queens existence is the furthest thing from easy....

12/10/2018