Lessons of loneliness

Since you been gone I've learned a lot,
I learned what loneliness and solitude is,
You could be standing in a crowd with a million people and friends around you still feel completely alone, half and never ever whole,
Life without you is impossible to bare,
A life without the abundant warming love and so much more that you share,
Lifes meaning, would have nothing to look forward to if any at all,
A meaningless life, A life spent in solitude and loneliness of my own soul and mind,
My body just a shell going through the motions of the day it feel like hell,
A life without you, I could just never smile, not even for just a little while,
A life without you simply wouldn’t be worthwhile,
I simply cannot imagine living such a loveless life,
I would hate living and have nothing to share, something I just can't bear,
It can't be just anyone to share my life it has to be you, as my wife, I looked so hard and long for you,
A life without your love by my side, with no lifes guide just simply kills me inside,
A reality where I would be a man broken and shattered inside,
I would be left with nothing but emptiness within,
Sadness which would radiate from my soul to my outer skin, as I have experienced before but never been this painful,
So I want you to know I love you more than words can say more than I could even explain any other way,
For living a life without you would be gray days with no sun to come out and play, no fun feeling like my soul and body are done,
You have given me the greatest gift that only you can give, and I so dearly missed, impossible to resist,
The love and care within your heart, my reason to fight for that right to stand by your side as each other's  guides. 

Thank for having me in your life 😍