Her Hardest Goodbye

Today she faces depths of pain she has never felt before

I wish there was more I could do

I sent her flowers I expressed my deepest sympathy

The normal things people do

I hate seeing her this way In total dismay

What words of comfort can I give to her

Should I tell her your mother is here and all around you

I’m not sure that’s comforting

Should I express how she would be so proud of her

I’m not sure that will ease her suffering

Should I tell her that time will heal

I’m not sure it will, for there’ll always be a burning hole deep inside her soul

I pour the tea

Milk two sugars

She agrees

I want so much to hug her tightly

But I’m afraid that it will send a wave of emotion

That she would rather not bare out loud in a crowded room

We drink the tea slowly

She looks at me briefly

She conjures up a small smile

We haven’t seen each other in a very long while

And although its under such sad circumstances

I'm glad I'm here

I take her to the side.

I tell her I’m so sorry your amazing beautiful mother has died.

She was taken too soon.

No one could have predicted what would happen that afternoon

Do not blame yourself for not being near by.

You will never know the why

Be strong like I know you are .

Cry and let it all out if you must.

But trust that this isn’t the last goodbye

As you will see your dear mother in a while