E-Poems

pain

As my tears fall, my heart becomes damp. 

As the pain seeps through the cracks that form my false hope,

I realise my heart hasn’t smiled in days. 

As my stomach rumbles in horror and harrow

As my mind aches and my vision blurs

I realise my reality has become my nightmares.

I hope for a sense of light, a sense of forgiveness

But the dark and dense whole that gapes in my soul feels permanent. 

How will I ever recover from this feeling of loss.

The planet orbits my brain and I float silently in the abyss.

I miss myself. 

I am grieving the smile that once laid upon my warm face. 

I am grieving my past life that I tightly hold onto for a sense of normality… 

Maybe I should let go 

Maybe I should leave that old broken home. 

I fear that if I abandon my shelter that I will never feel love again. 

That I will melt away and loose my compassion. 

If time was replaceable, I would replace the last 4 months in a instant. 

My world feels like it is crumbling. 

Will this pain ever weaken? 

Will I find peace? 

Will the images I have seen ever erase from the innocence of my mind. 

Will I ever recover from the pain you have put me through. 

I sure hope so…

Because the pain and heart break I have been feeling, 

Is easily the worst pain of all. 

 

Comments1

  • Poetic Dan

    Wow... "I realise my reality has become my nightmares."
    A chill and goosebumps at the same time at that part and the rest was the beautiful open heart of yours!

    Thank you for sharing your pain, last year I got inspired by a comment on my work I got it tattooed on my arms!

    Live in love let go of fear, enjoy the journey while you are here.

    You'll soon be riding this wave into brighter days, with a flow like your will be a breeze

    • E-Poems

      Thank you, your comments as always are much appreicated! I love that quote! x



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