Father Is Not Real

This can't be real
The arguments you can't be serious
Refuse to heal and to feel
Hide hide from this all

Run run I can't go further
Its night I feel tired nothing but rest
Mind fills the thoughts its all but a pest
I don't want this and I now you do too

Is this really real
Life is ruthless
But that's not what I want
I can get through this

But what to do if your all alone
Lost in darkness of the night
No where to go no one to hold you
All I want is life life not to fear from

Is this really real
Father I know this ain't real
Father is not real
I'm on my own

The anxiety is gone I'm free
The weight is gone I can breath
Years go by I need love I want love
I want to give love to feel loved

I really never had it
The attention maybe I'm all alone
Fear spread in my mind
Death is rolling near

An angel appears with comfort
I can give you my fears
Find comfort in your arms
What's going on I'm alone

It was a lie fear has come back
I can't run anymore I'm stuck
The weight I'm losing breath
Please save me once again Angel
I wish I had my Angel back

Its all gone I'm alone
No connection the feeling she's gone
Im blind once again where do I go
I'm truly lost to a father I want to be

A life I want to start
But the weight on my shoulders
The pain in my chest
I'm suffocating with fear
The father is not real or am I not real
I'm lost once again trapped with fear