Shhhh
Listen
Do you hear that?
Do you hear the silence?
Good
This is my chance
For a moment of painful bliss
I call it “painful” and “bliss”
For the same reason:
It’s a lie
I finally shut the lids
That weigh down on my tired eyes
In that same second
A silhouette appears in my vision
It’s breathtaking
It’s magical
It’s glowing
It’s kind
It’s you
God, it’s you
Look at you
Damn it!
Shhhh
My mind splits in two
“It’s not real”
One half says
“Don’t fall for it”
And my eyelids wrinkle
As I try to shut them harder
“But look”
The other tries
“Look how beautiful
And peaceful
Look how happy you could be”
Shhhh
It hurts
Stop
Please
I’m begging you
Shhhh
“Shhhh...
It’s okay baby”
Your silhouette says
As it rocks my body
Back and forth
“You’re okay”
And it still hurts
But this time
I can shut that one half out
Of my restless mind
“Shhhh”
“Hmmm”
“Hey there”
“Hi”
“I’ve missed you”
You press kisses
To my temple and shoulder
“Me more”
“You don’t visit me like you used to”
“I’m sorry
I try
I really do
But it hurts so much”
I cry
As you hold me
You wipe a tear off my cheek
And kiss it
“It’s okay
I’m right here now
I’m not leaving okay?
I promise”
“Stop!
It’s a lie, you idiot!”
My eyes fly open
And just like that
You’re gone
I find myself
Still rocking
Back and forth
Only this time
It’s not your silhouette that rocks me
It’s the force of my tears
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Author:
Little Dreamer (Pseudonym) (
Offline) - Published: July 31st, 2019 08:00
- Comment from author about the poem: This poem is about a person I’ve fallen in love with who no longer has feelings for me. It’s about the fatal pain, along with the unjustified hope that comes with severe heartbreak. Even though everything tells me we can’t be together, I still hope for it everyday. I hope that a day will come when they can really hold me. I hope you enjoy this.
- Category: Sad
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Comments5
Hi FRIEND ~ welcome to MPS ~ it is an empathetic site and we can share your pain with you ! Poetry is very very cathartic. Despite the angst we both loved the elegance and heart in your Poem ! We are 31 (Angela) and 35 (Brian) engaged and we share this site ! Since we were teenagers we have experienced the agony & ecstasy of *Being in & out Love* its easier for MEN to say *Better to have loved & lost ~ than never to have loved at all* but much harder for Ladies ~ so we do understand. We are thinking of YOU and praying for you at this sad time ! I (BRIAN) am in the UK and ANGELA is on a Work Exchange in New Zealand so we are 11,500 miles apart til OCTOBER ! Our True Love makes the separation a bit easier. Please check our SITE ~ OK
Blessings & Peace
Yours ANGELA & BRIAN 🧡💙🧡💙
Thank you so so much for your kind words. I actually also kind of had a long distance thing with the person my poem is about and I understand how hard it can get. Thank you for allowing me to share my pain and for receiving it with kindness. I hope to find a strong, true love like yours someday.
Harsh words at a time when they will do you good.... find something else to write about because 1) you write well 2) a more rewarding loves/loves are around the corner for you.
Thank you for saying that I write well. I truly appreciate your words. It's really difficult to write about something else because I am entirely consumed by this pain right now. Hopefully I'll start healing soon, but till then, I can't guarantee that my subject matter will change...
OK, so tell us about where you would be in 5 years time if this 'ideal' man had turned out differently.... tell u why i suggest this.... i think that pretty soon it will begin to show you the areas where he wasn't quite ideal at all..... but it has to come from within you.
I write this hoping you receive it in the positive spirit i send it.
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Much liked by me... and welcome to my poetic side...
Neville
Thank you so much. That means a lot.
you are much more than welcome my friend...
Wow- this is an excellent first entry. Please keep sharing your talents!
That’s so sweet of you 🙁 thank you! I don’t intend on stopping soon 💕
You did very well! Excellent first submission. I hope you keep writing! And welcome to MPS!!--Christina
Thank you so much, really 💖 if there’s one thing I’ll always do, it’s write 😊
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