Fleeting

The only happiness I feel these days is the kind that is fleeting

Most days, I just want my heart to stop beating

 

Maybe there’s a problem with the way that I’m wired

But maybe if I do it, they’ll believe that I’m tired

 

The only one who gets me doesn’t want me anymore

And I’m feeling more and more like there’s nothing to live for

 

They wonder sometimes why I seem blue

And it’s cause I don’t want to live without you

 

They take a look at me and tell me that I’m thinning

Little do they know a huge part of me is missing

 

I need you like I need oxygen in the air

Someone has it out for us and it just isn’t fair

 

I really don’t know if I’ll ever be okay

So long as you don’t want me and you’re light years away

 

I hate everything and I hate this world

For taking love away from an already lonely girl

 

Will it give me what I want if I suddenly fall ill?

Or will my thoughts and agony always haunt me still?

 

Will they hear my cries from beyond the bathroom door?

Or will they think I’m lying and continue to ignore?

 

I think I need some help and I need it pretty fast

So I can find a kind of happiness that might actually last