My palms are sweaty
I wipe them on my knees
Without warning or alert,
my body is feeling unease
Of course I worry a lot
But this is different--entirely
It's your worst nightmare
Only it's happening to me
Here comes a panic attack
Feels like a gun to the head
After all these years I know it's irrational
But body says "you'll soon be dead!"
I'm getting quite good at panicking alone
In fact, I'm panicking right now
If I could just convince my body to stop
Or interrupt "Fight or Flight" somehow
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Author:
Christina (Pseudonym) (
Offline) - Published: August 2nd, 2019 23:24
- Comment from author about the poem: I have had Panic Disorder since I was in my teens. It's a terrible feeling of loneliness when you feel like no one understands these things.
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Panic attacks are truly rough, and your poems are truly amazing. I actually recently written one about the same topic, just haven’t posted it yet.
I am humbled by your assessment of my poems. You'll notice that reviews have gone down dramatically from yesterdays numbers cause no one really knows what to say, and it's not a love poem. But go ahead, post yours!! Thanks for stopping by! Appreciate it!!--Christina
Unfortunately they’ll do that, views tend to go up and down. I’ll be reading everyone though, they’re too good to go unnoticed.
A horrible affliction - seems so irrational and yet so very real. so sorry to hear you are affected - a fine write about it Christina.r
Thank you Michael I appreciate your concern and reply very much! Christina
a convincing write
a revealing poem
I think a lot of people might benefit from learning they aint alone....
Neville
Yes I hope so....Thank you kind sir for the read and reply..Appreciated! Christina
Tis the truth....
HOLA - Thanks for sharing CHRIS ! I trust you found it cathartic ? You know some of us are Praying for You & Yours 24/7 ! I (BRIAN) have been overwhelmed by circumstances once or twice - trying to doo too many things at once ! I always STOP - have a tonic water - ask GOD to carry me over & through the crisis - and it works but it takes it toll !
Bleassings & Peace & Joy to YOU & YOURS
Muchos Abrzos y Besos de nos a tus !
All our Love in the SPIRIT BRIAN & ANGELA
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No, I didn't really find it cathartic. I wanted to share what I was going through.Why I wrote "Facade" the day before. If you've ever been truly terrified for no explainable reason, whether it's a phobia of yours that came to fruition or what have you, you know, tonic water isn't gonna cut it. I do thank you for the prayers, but I will ask Him that someday you understand.
HI CHRISTINA ~ Thanks for your reply - very humbling ! I (BRIAN) am a qualified Student Councellor but that is very different from being a Psychiatrist and Angela is the same ! She has to deal with very difficult circumstances following accidents etc but neither is she a Psychiatrist. Neither of us have had Panic Attacks of the nature and severity you describe so we cant speak from experience - neither would we be able to deal with a Student (in my case) or a Patient (in Angelas case) because we are NOT Qualified or Experienced. What we deal with is minor STRESS !
I apologise if my reply offended you -
I will be more careful in FUTURE ~ SORRY
Blessings & Peace & Prayer
Your Friends BRIAN & ANGELA
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I only ever had one panic attack which was brought on by skunk cannabis (years ago and have never touched anything since) and it was a horrible experience. Maybe drug induced panic attacks are different, i don't know, but you most certainly have my sympathy and best wishes for recovering from each attack.
Yours is a frightening, compelling read into the dark side today.
I didn't mean to go to the dark side today, I am just living my truth. Thank you for your kind reply and yes a panic attack from anything is still a panic attack so imagine having those on a regular basis. And I just have to get through this. Thanks so much DA!!--Christina
Most of us don't know how to respond, so we coil away into our own hiding place, afraid to make the situation worse.
You have unabashedly exposed your affliction in a very poetic verse and unlike most, you recognize it as it is happening, which is the first step to realizing need for compasionate help
Thank you so much for your honest and very much appreciated reply to my poem. It is true that most don't know how to respond, and thats' okay too. I'm just so glad that you did!! Thanks again!--Christina
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