Monophobia

Kevin B.

I wait and wait for you to just talk to me

I’m not sure what it takes for you to see

I just want you to love me

 

to see me as someone who cares

I’m not perfect but I love you...

I mess up, I do things wrong..

I try to do things like you want me to

But I mess it up too like crows attempting a song..

The more attempts i make I still end up with broken pieces

 

Without you I’m broken, a shell

You shutdown and shut me out all the while I’m in hell

 

Without a voice, response or text

My mind is surrounded by silence and darkness

Leaving me alone lost, vexed and perplexed

I feel the silence creep in filling my ears

An empty void swallowing me whole

My chest tightens and my mind screams

The fear of being alone keeps me humble....keeps me kneeling at your feet....

I don’t want to say or do anything that may cost me my seat....

Do I love you, or am I just a slave to my fears and in your control.....

I sit in the darkness begging for your love and attention like a lost dog for table scraps

I do my best to keep the pain and anxiety under wraps

You don’t notice or maybe you don’t care...

It doesn’t matter I can’t let go, to find someone that cares about me is too rare...

All I wanted was for someone to care

In the end I forgot that some people just pretend....

  • Author: The Final Chapter (Pseudonym) (Offline Offline)
  • Published: September 3rd, 2019 02:31
  • Comment from author about the poem: I wrote this as I felt it, I have severe anxiety when left alone for too long but even still my Fiancé will still shut me out and leave me alone even knowing what that does to me..
  • Category: Reflection
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Comments2

  • Neville

    this is an excellent treatise to the beast we call anxiety...

  • FineB

    Hello KevinB,

    A great powerful poem and that expresses the sadness of being alone at times.

    Keep writing FineB

    • Kevin B.

      Thank you so much, if you do like this one you could also check out the other I wrote called “ Blanket of anxiety”



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