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Why can't I get you out of me head?

Why must this torture continue, to wake up I dread.

Because though you aren't in front of me, I see you vividly

and my thoughts are consumed by you completely.

Randomly triggered by my surroundings, it's very draining.

I feel so hopeless like this won't end, it's saddening.

When I hear a loud noise, a song, someone comes near me too fast

Certain foods, my dreams, and of course the past.

I want to be rid of you, its like im encased being squeezed and Icant get free.

And i beg myself, for my brain to hear my plea.

"Please not again i don't want to remember.

It scares me, hurts, and makes my strength timber."

Without my strength I have intrusive thoughts, the ones where I think I can bleed you out.

It frustrates me and makes me want to shout.

"I CAN'T HAVE ANOTHER SCAR THAT WILL REMIND ME OF YOU!"

So I sit, staring at nothing, because i know it's true.

That I just need to clean my wounds.

And eventually there will be a day my brain won't think of you.