33 days at 1:33am, my mind contemplates

Express yourself for all you're worth, there is nothing like you on this earth!

 

We each had a time where all this awareness of emotions kicked in, at 33 days old, at 1:33am it currently has gone like this....

 

"I'm unsure, where's your heart beat," don't worry I'm here!

 

"okay I'll drift off, but I don't know what this is," this is life my child and each day is a lesson.

 

This repeated for 45 minutes until my magnificent lioness took over!

 

Now I played the role I was encouraged to play, the anger teenager that ran away.

 

Finding out a few years ago, my mother pregnant at 16, (with my older brother) could wait to do this too.

 

So a cycle I continued unable to connect to my caregivers, by the age of 30 I'm divorced and about to complete a familiar program

 

8 years later my son is nearly the age I met his wonderful mother, she was only 16 and from my knowledge now, was looking for the same pattern.

 

She had an amazing supporting family, mine was a complete and utterly different story. Yet in the end they was all proven right our marriage was just to young people, wanting to do whatever they felt in their heart.

 

Although together we have still managed to break, this generational inherited baggage. When our children don't feel as disconnected as we did, unable to express or find an outlet.

 

When we teach to exist is wonders art of magic, have no fear or doubt about all the madness. We are all trying to break free of the ancestral savages!

 

Family will always be whatever YOU make it!