Contradictions hypocrite

Contradictions hypocrite

There’s a big black hole where my heart should be

And it’s killing me!  Just to be me.

I try to change and remove the pain,

But it’s a part of me now; my soul is stained.

I need to love, but I don’t want to talk.

I need you to love me, but who loves a dork?

I hate myself for needing your help,

So I won’t put you through this too, for this is my own Hell.

I am contradictions hypocrite,

And I am constantly hit by emotional baggage.

Put me out of my misery, please!

I just cannot manage,

To just find the tiniest speck of joy,

Or a reason to believe.

The fearful boy who wants to love,

But the glass will never ever be even half-full.

It’s life half-empty permanently;

Dead skies up above.

No ray of light shines down on me.

Just endless self-torture, no more pity;

I cannot take it anymore.

I cannot stand to tell you the truth, so I let you fall.

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