Reflections of an Ordinary Life

I‘m walking slowly, oh so slowly
Moving with a sense of reverence
Defeated by a relentless flow of time
That marches on, leaving me far, far behind.

And while I find myself living in this state of mind
I keep asking myself time and time again
What have I learned? What have I gained?
Have I made a difference in the world?

I regret not savoring every single second
Or remind me that life could end at any moment
I should have defeated the demons that haunt me
And walked away from those who want to hurt me.

It’s time to embrace what makes me weak
And forgive me for every defeat
I'm grateful for the things I’ve accomplished
Even when at times I don’t know where I’m going.

I should have recognized early on
That the emptiness I feel is self-inflicted
Had I opened my eyes to the world a bit sooner
I wouldn’t feel so damn lost and disconnected.

So once again I ask myself
What have I learned? What have I gained?
Have I made a difference in the world?
Questions that keep pounding my head day after day…

I learned that life is an unpredictable path
The direction of our lives is never a straight line
We are here to influence one another
With virtues that live deep inside each other.

I gained the knowledge to place myself
In the pages of my own unique story
It started the moment I became self-aware
And it ends when I close my eyes forever.

Dedicated to my friend Mary S., a very special person.