Broken Record 2019

I am laying on my back in a booth, hiding from the inevitable

I am here for your money you do not want to give

And you?

You are here waiting for me to get up so you can spit in my face

Green with envy

And the day repeats

Now I am in bed thinking of the boy you were and wishing I was still the girl you once were infatuated with

And you?

You have not thought about me or the girl I use to be since the day I opened my legs for you

You know, the day we both saw red and blue

And the day repeats

Now I am bouncing back and forth swiping left swiping right

I am looking for validation or simple conversations

And you?

You are pleading for me to open up to you

You are trying to fully discover every inch of me knowing I don’t want you to

My mind is distracted, red with fury

And the day repeats

Now I am confiding in the closest of friends

I am coming to you with an open heart, no battle wounds

And you?

You’re choosing a man, a stranger, over my unconditional love

Lost trying to find what I did wrong, You left me feeling blue

And the day repeats

Now I am looking at you straight in the mirror wondering if I’ll ever live up to the girl I use to be

And you?

Clinging with your very last pinky finger

You’re hoping things will only get better

You know things will never be the same but that doesn’t mean you have to be sad anymore

Fight it, fight me, fight yourself

The strongest warriors win the toughest battles 

The sun is now rising, the sky is golden leaving me in a yellow aura filled with hope

It’s time .

For the day to repeat