You Never Know

I was only a child. 
Oh how I wish I would've known. 
But you never know.

I didn't know how to ride a bike.

I didn't know how to tie my shoe.

Theres only so much you know at the age 4 and how I wish I knew what I know now.

It wasn't just any touch. 
It wasn't scary. 
The more it happened the more I questioned. 
Why couldn't anyone else be around when we " played " 

Why me? 
Why was I your favorite? 
I was just a little girl but you knew that. 
I didn't know what was going on.. but you knew that.

It was one time.

You rubbed yourself against me.

You made me feel as if I were special. 
All I wanted was a friend. 
All you wanted was a bone.
I wish I knew back then that it was molestation. 
But you never know. 
I try to forget you but you pass my mind every now and then. 
I try to let go. 
But all I could think about is how much I didn't know ...