The Ghost in the Shadows

Where was the card

The one to tell you everything was okay?

Where was the spirit 

The one to tell you that it was about to be over.

The urges

The fight

it's hard to handle anymore

I tried and tried 

The effort is there but obviously sore.

The dreams at night

The dreams I fight

The dreams that keep me up 

The ones that say that always will mean never.

The dreams that show me what I feel

I try and kick and cry

It's no use to fight.

I lived my life

I fought through the worst

I always get sucked back into my old life that ruins

Here, try this, it's something new

Oh, I only wish I knew that it was no use.

I wished to know who really watches

I am unable to speak 

It all happened

I got what I wanted

But was it really worth it?

The joy didn't last long.

Before I knew it, the cycle came about again

while my head spins in circles

I wonder when will it end.

Why must he sit and watch from the outside?

Can he no longer hear me?

So many tears are shed

and he isn't there to dry me.

Did he no longer want me anymore

or have I given up on him?

Whatever it seems to be,

I don't care.