I'm Autistic
Only diagnosed recantly
Masked everything for 35 years
Hard to accept
Hard To understand
Family,Friends
expect me to continue
As I did before
I'm trying too but its a struggle
Dont like loud,suddan noises
Like routine,like to be
within my comfort zone
Family says always work
I can't do that anymore
Its hard I need time out, a space
I need time for me.
Some family and friends
Don't seem to understand
I know I need to earn money to live
I'm doing that
But what I'm doing is enough
Can't do more
Some people expect me to do more
But its a struggle for me.
Some people are not understanding me
They think, I should be a normal 36 year old
Have a relationship, get married, have children, but thats not me.
Too much pressure on me being someone Im not and will not ever be.
You look at me and think Im normal
But I'm not, I have a invisable disablity
I have autism. I can only do so much.
The struggle is there, the struggle is real.
I always do the best I can
I can't Please everyone
I'm doing the best I can for me
I've got to put myself before others.
I've got autism the struggle is
real, the struggle is there.
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Author:
slnarnwl83 (
Offline) - Published: January 25th, 2020 06:18
- Category: Reflection
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Comments1
Great to read you on MPS site. Do what you do and do what you can is my response. I have a daughter who has an autistic experience.
There should be more love in the world to allow us each to be as we wish... however that isn't the reality is it?
I'd like to read more of your work and see how you show us your perception.
Thank you very much. I agree we should be able to be what we wish but as you said its not always the reality. I have a few self published book on amazon that you can perhaps look at. But I will post my poems on here when I can as its only one a day so you can see them. Thank you again.
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