Autistic Struggles

slnarnwl83

I'm Autistic

Only diagnosed recantly

Masked everything for 35 years

Hard to accept

Hard To understand

 

Family,Friends

expect me to continue

As I did before

I'm trying too but its a struggle

Dont like loud,suddan noises

Like routine,like to be

within my comfort zone

 

Family says always work

I can't do that anymore

Its hard I need time out, a space

I need time for me.

 

Some family and friends

Don't seem to understand

I know I need to earn money to live

I'm doing that

But what I'm doing is enough

Can't do more

Some people expect me to do more

But its a struggle for me.

 

Some people are not understanding me

They think, I should be a normal 36 year old

Have a relationship, get married, have children, but thats not me.

Too much pressure on me being someone Im not and will not ever be.

 

You look at me and think Im normal

But I'm not, I have a invisable disablity

I have autism. I can only do so much.

The struggle is there, the struggle is real.

 

I always do the best I can

I can't Please everyone

I'm doing the best I can for me

I've got to put myself before others.

 

I've got autism the struggle is

real, the struggle is there.

 

 

 

  • Author: slnarnwl83 (Offline Offline)
  • Published: January 25th, 2020 06:18
  • Category: Reflection
  • Views: 11
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  • dusk arising

    Great to read you on MPS site. Do what you do and do what you can is my response. I have a daughter who has an autistic experience.
    There should be more love in the world to allow us each to be as we wish... however that isn't the reality is it?
    I'd like to read more of your work and see how you show us your perception.

    • slnarnwl83

      Thank you very much. I agree we should be able to be what we wish but as you said its not always the reality. I have a few self published book on amazon that you can perhaps look at. But I will post my poems on here when I can as its only one a day so you can see them. Thank you again.



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