I still and always will..

I still search for you, yet I know where you are

I can not get to you

You’re still so close to me

yet unbelievably so far

I search the clouds

I search the ocean

I search through trees and crowds

I search the stars

I search the moon

Praying you’re okay up there

And that being with you again will feel like it’s soon

As time has passed missing you has become another part of me

Engraved deeper in my heart

Another part of me died that day

I never would of been ready for us to part

I still long for you

Your touch, your kiss

I long for our conversations that went on through till morning that i desperately miss

I long to fall asleep hand in hand again

I long to joke with my love,

my best friend

I long to gaze in your beautiful eyes and

Touch your beautiful face

Just to hear your voice would be my earthly heavenly grace

I wake up, breathe and miss you and that continues every day

Because my heart belongs to you and I will cry for you always

No matter what they say

Until we are back together

Where my soul can be happy

finally again but for forever

The only way to carry on is living not entirely and truly myself, separating the depths of my soul, the tragic pain and my infinite devoted love for you

and placing it on a shelf

So that’s what I do but

I visit that shelf

Whenever I need too

Which is often throughout the day

I still wear your jumper and inhale your scent as I weep whenever I lay

I would of giving anything to god

To make sure that you stayed

I will stay strong

Carry on this human life even tho it feels so wrong

And when I’m alone I will still close my eyes and be with you, a beautiful day dream that you’ll do too.