I'm screaming at def ears

You agrivate me so

Was I never gonna be 

Good enough for you

Was I just easy pussy

So you could get laid

You gave me a place to live

Was it to be kind

Out of the goodness of your heart

Or because you were lonely

I came to terms

Long ago

We would never be 

What I wanted us to be

But you knew my feelings

Just as I knew yours

Since day one I was honest

You tell me

I cant be with anyone else

And yet you don't want me

You call out my name

My real name

And it gives me 

The slightest spark of hope

But then refuse to touch me

And now you're done

You've had your fun

Played your games

Lord knows you won't touch me

Unless your dick

Is down my throat

But can you even stand

To look at me

Tell me something

Be honest

Get mad if you have to

Like I do

When you call me fat

Now that youre sober

Are your thoughts clearer

Dont lie to me

I'm a big girl 

Tell me the truth

Was it you

Or the booze

Who kissed me at the lake

Was it beer or my best friend

Who let me sleep in his bed 

Was it whiskey 

Or a fantasy 

I created in my head

I thought that fight 

Brought us closer

Until I realize

You'd never been drunker

Ps...i still fucking love you