Nicotine Spirit


Empty stomach

Brimming brain

Lungs invite the nicotine   

Feel it spreading through my veins 


Sudden attention bestowed to me  

A subtle moan, a desperate plea

Who am I in sober wake  

A shitty state for pity’s sake    


Loneliness awake the ache

Heart bending not to break  

A memory that won’t retain   

I am no victim of my mistakes 

A night of regret for numbness sake    

Eyes pleading take the pain   


A moment something satisfies

I rest, relax, press into lies  

And then I find myself alone   

Once again cut to the bone  

There is no love  
There is no sight  

There are just words  

Whisper I’m alright   


And in the dark   
Embrace the night 

I beg this heart

Give up the fight 



    I'm in the same boat..if its not one thing its
    I enjoyed this very much

    • railasunshine

      Thank you, Jason! Always always hang in there. It will get better. 🙂

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